I love you
“I love you”, the words resonated in my heart. It felt as if they had touched my soul. “Why?” I thought a tear rolled down my face “How can three words make me feel at ease?”. Those three words set me free. I felt as if the shackles had been broken. I looked up at her. An angel! Her form, her smile was so elegant.
Though, I could not look into her eyes. I knew if I did, I could never leave. So many things I wanted to say. If only… No, it will only cause pain. I had hoped to keep this feeling in control, maybe even forever.
“I…” I tried to speak. She still stood perfectly still. I could feel her kind eyes at the back of my neck. So, I kept my head down. I had no right to look at her. She smelled like a fresh summer breeze. Everything about her was heavenly. Always calm and composed.
And then there was me. A failure. I could not even stand up. My legs gave out the moment she came close. I disgust myself.
When she said those words I felt pity for her. She is the ideal human- funny, beautiful, and intelligent. A rare find even among the elite of the elite. Even then, she wanted me. I burst out crying. I knew the reality well. With time, I am sure she will realize her mistake. This delusion that she is in, will break. And that day, she will resent me for ruining her life. I cannot bear that thought.
Imagine, a grown man crying on his knees in front of a woman he admired and dare say loved.
“I… I am a pervert” I yelled at the top of my lungs. Now, she will leave. I am sure that the people around heard. Now, she must be embarrassed beyond repair. I looked up and our eyes met. It was like looking into a peaceful storm. Her face had turned peach red. A smile appeared on my face. “She can do better.” I thought.
The story continues
And just when I thought it was over. She whispered, “I know.” Every word which came out of her mouth felt like the words of the gods. The shock of them was enough to make me stand. My legs no longer hurt. Nothing hurt. It was like she had put my soul at peace. In all this, she only spoke five words. That was all it took.
“I…I… you know” I tried to speak. She was probably an inch shorter than me. So close! She did not avert her gaze. Piercing, yet so tender. I had known for a long time. She was no ordinary being, because if I was a human then she must be no less than a god.
I felt something move behind me. Before I could react, she had thrown her arms around me. I tried to wrestle free but my arms did not respond. My body was more loyal to her than my own mind. “It’s okay,” she said, stroking my neck. I gave in. Taking her in my arms, I said “You will regret this” holding her tight. I never want to let go. This feeling I have, I want to hang on as long as I can. Deep down I had known that if she said such words I could never refuse. So, she may resent me. She may hate me for the rest of our living days but it is okay. Since it would mean she has finally found her worth.