We have grown up listening that God has made someone special for each of us. The soulmate’s stories are also there. Most of all even have dreamt of a prince charming or princess. Rom-coms are our favorite binge-watch. We all have wanted a fairytale romance. This shows the importance of romance in Human lives. There has been moments, when we all crave for it, need a companion to understand us like no one else, and love us unconditionally.
My Love Life
As an adult in my mid-twenties, I do have wanted it and experienced it but most of the time, it did not go well. I feel sort of funny reminiscing all about what it was like to find love for me.
The first time I fell for somone was back at school. There was this cute guy. He had dimples to add to his beauty. I never knew what he felt about me. I was not a very social person either so we never talked. He was the first one to who I was so strongly attracted. Later on, I found out he had a girlfriend. Then I thought I had no chances being with him.
Then I was in a long-distance relationship with a guy. That didn’t work either because I found he was texting all the time to my sibling instead. There were moments when I was deeply hurt. So there was the full-stop. Then I started dating another guy. I realized who was not for me when I discovered he had unfriended me for no reason at all on social media.
And then comes another guy, who I fell for and then, later on, found out he had a girlfriend already at his native place. I was not able to move on from him the very moment. I was very wrong to think of him that he will be with me one day. Finally, I realize it is not going to work out. I was being played with; so I decided to leave.
I had regained contact with my old-school crush was also single by then. After a few months, I got the proposal. Marriage is all about who you are comfortable being with someone for me. I said yes immediately.
But this was not going to end well as I had thought. I was not getting enough time and attention. He was not very thoughtful of words. The decision to marry him was giving me insecurities and anxiety only. Even His parents were sort of pressurizing and he was following them. So, I decided it was better to end things there and look for a better partner I deserve.
What I have learnt by now?
By the time I have realized self-worth. Now I know what I want from a partner. It is not wise to settle down with less effort. I have heard people will love us as we are if we accept ourselves first and love ourselves. Most importantly, I have learned that I was searching for love in another person. I am satisfied and content for now being single beside all the pressures of marriage (as an Asian) and finding a partner. The best companion for me right now is only me. That is what I need for the rest of my life.