that’s a letter TO MY FIRSTBORN
I have not even begun yet and my throat already feels tighter, my heart is a little heavier.
My dear love, in about 60 days it will no longer be just you and me and Papa. 8 to 10 weeks from now, we will welcome another beautiful soul into our family. Mama and Papa will get to watch you growing into the role of a big sister. You will ace the promotion without a doubt and the big responsibility that will come along it. We’re excited for you to finally have a lifelong playmate and best friend.
LOOKING BACK WITH A SMILE
But my love, I can’t help thinking about how our time together -of just the two of us- is coming to an end. Mama is bawling now. I remember the time we found out that we were pregnant with you. It was a beautiful day, like no other. It was an easy pregnancy throughout. Nothing could have prepared me for the emotions I felt when I first held you in my arms.
Soon enough you will turn five years old.
I can’t imagine how many times I’ve said how time flies. It’s scary how fast we went from the moment they put you in my arms till today. Time should slow down a little bit. I want it to be a little bit longer just for the two of us. But I will never be the one who holds you back. You were meant to fly highly. When you do, Mama and Papa will be the wind below your little wings.
MY DAUGHTER, MY TEACHER
My little love, these four years have been the best years of my life. You have taught me more than you could ever know. Being your Mama has been the greatest joy of my life. You are the sweetest, kindest and smartest little girl I know. Though you’rere little, you continue to amaze me every single day. It’ss overwhelming to know that you seem to need me less every day. But you should know that I silently celebrate all your victories, no matter how they are small. Your small victories are my big ones.
It has been both painful and exciting to see the time pass. Seeing you grow into the beautiful person that you are now is such a joy. Sometimes I just want to freeze time and memorize your speech, your tiny fingers, and tiny toes. I want to remember your funny faces and your laugh. About your smell, I want to store it in a bottle.
FOREVER AND ALWAYS MY LITTLE GIRL
As we get closer to receiving your little brother, I want you to know that you will always be my number one. My firstborn. The very same one who made me a mother and a better version of myself. I want to thank you for helping Papa and Mama become the parents that we need to be.
Please know, my love, that you will forever be Mama’s little girl no matter how grown-up you become. I promise to hold you a little closer and a little tighter in the next few days, and tell you I love you until it annoys you just so you know that I don’t take this time alone with you for granted. It will be a time I will always remember.
We’ll grow together, love each other together, and I am excited to see what the future holds. Until then, I hope the days slow down a little bit. But if they don’t, I will never forget that you were the one who made me a Mama.
I love you with all my heart and soul.