When I say “I don’t want to talk,” this does not mean I don’t.
When I tell you “I am fine,” I not necessarily am.
When I shout out “things are great,” I don’t really mean they are.
It is well-known among people that the teenage phase is difficult. No, the phase isn’t difficult. It is just that I need someone to talk with, to love, and to care about. When I am having a bad day, and I refuse to talk, it doesn’t always mean that I don’t want to. It’s just that I need someone to discuss with, but I am not able to decide who thay person is. I need you to listen to me and not to view me as a crazy head. Yes, I might be a little crazy and that’s just because I am experiencing a limitless loop of emotions running through my brain.
In addition, the worst feeling of all time is when I realize that I am sad but don’t know the reason behind it. I don’t expect much, but I just need you to know what your child is going through. My school grades alone just cannot describe me. You need to think beyond that and stop judging me.
If I am frequently sad, it doesn’t mean that I am someone who just can’t be happy. On the contrary, I am someone going through a lot of difficulties and still is not able to answer the questions that pop up in the middle of nowhere every night I try to sleep. Yes, I am the one whose room is messy, and I am the one who wants nobody to peep on my phone. It’s just because that’s the thing that makes me feel more secure and happy. Maybe, all of these are because I have just grown up from the very secured childhood phase, and it’s right now that I have started facing the difficulties of life.
Every time I try to discuss my issues that irk me, I fear that you compare them with those of your times or those of my nieces. I want to let you know that everyone is facing different issues and difficulties in their own lives. I need you to help me figure things out. I need you to knock at my door, saying “hey sweetie, we are there for you.” I need a hug from someone important to me, who are definitely you. I love you, but I can’t stand bringing out my feelings. You are the one whom I love the most and respect the most. Perhaps, that’s why I expect a lot from you. Please, next time when I have a sad face, come to me and give me a tight hug. I promise it would solve most of my problems.