I might come off as ignorant towards my own future, perhaps even reckless if I say that biotechnology is my choice of field. But that can be read as true if seen from this perspective. As a kid, I had always been obsessed with coming up with designs for clothes, mostly inspired by Barbie movies and writing stories and poems while getting inspired by various authors, so I had made a decision to pursuit either fashion designing or English linguistics/literature. As I grew older, I came to understand the certain way of brown parenting and I was expected to choose medical field. My interest and curiosity for biology and of course persuasion of my parents has me standing in the 6th semester of biotechnology which I regret from time to time as I know would have been able to excel in my field of interest and not be just an average student seeking to complete the degree. It’s clear I would be confident and more happy in pursuing the field in which feels effortless to me as a person.
But if I get to change my field in the future, I would, without hesitation gravitate towards English literature. The books in my drawer with almost ripped off binding and some never touched books on my night stand are one of my guilty pleasure. If I think about myself 10 years from now, I would like to see myself sitting in a library (that I would probably own) with a minimalist yet an interior that says “homey” with the aroma of fresh printed books and brewed coffee with a type writer on my desk, chasing after my imaginations and bringing it to life on the page in front of me. I would be a successful children poem and fantasy or slice of life author and also a fashion designer on the side (that’s what I like to think). I would own studio where I would put my creativity to work to come up with gowns and kimonos and perhaps heels have a chance their somewhere. Probably get my tight circle of friends to help me when I have a writer’s block or when I’m not sure whether the design in sketched is too out there or simply indecipherable. I’d like to see myself established in every manner of my life (and hopefully own an Audi) and happy and healthy alongside my friends and family and at the end of the day go home to my friends and our cats.
It all may seem to surreal or an idealistic daydream but even now I still want that to be a possibility, the chances of which are zero to none, which is the only probable answer. *insert embarrassed laugh.